I'm Back!!!
(this is a very bad picture taken after a long & draining day at work)
ok ok!!! i know i've taken far tooooooo long to update my blog, but thanks to some endless bugging (and not to mention bitching) from my dearest levin ng, i've decided to blog.
now now, dont get too excited. it's been aeons since i've last touched this blog and im still surprised that it still exists. haha! oh wells, NEWSFLASH!!! the reason why i have no time to blog, email, update my friendster or to have a life, is because im so caught up with work and church that i simply have no time to blog.
internet has become a luxury i cant afford.
but not worries, wanhua is still happy. happier than before cause she has found a better calling than wasting her talent and youth away being depressed and constantly belittling herself. (wanhua talks about herself in third person because she's a geek =P)
sadly though, right now for this current entry, there aint gonna be no pretty pictures or camwhoring stuff that i normally put. i am currently under the weather but still full of Faith.
many reasons which i am not sure of, but here a few major reasons which attribute to it.
(i know this whining session is bad, but it'll help me to put things into perspective)
1) My favourite and most darling grandmother has just been diagnosed with lung cancer, and it is in the final stages. i havent told anybody about, only a few close friends. im just stuck at home seeing my poor old mother's face filled with sadness and disbelief. whislt my normally angsty and nonchalant sister is crying almost eveytime someone mentions about anything to do with food, esp. her famous po piahs and curry chicken.
2) Some sorry little juvenile delinquent of an ass stole my habdphone away from me. i've lost my contact list which took me 2 whole years to build up, and it pretty much contains the numbers of everyone that has been a part of my eventful life of 18 years and 2 months.
p.s If anyone reading this loves me enough and still has my number in your phone, kindaly drop me an sms, together with your full name so i can start re-building my contact list. (this is very imp. to me, cause i wanna kep in contact with everyone of you guys.)
ok. im done with the whining. anywho, im trying to remain positive for the sake of not only my grandmother, but my mother and sister as well. this is a time of desperation and helplessness because the *&%^$E%*(*&&%$%$** of a doctors have given up all hope on her and refuse to give her any form of treatment or surgery.
in other words, she is left to die.
worst of all, it seems as though she doesnt know how serious her illness is. she only knows that she has "jit liap" (one lump) in her lungs.
i've tried my darnest best to visit her ever since i've noticed her shrinking in size day by day. and i've been feeling this string tugging at my heart to bring her to one of my church's hokkien services.
i've been praying and God keeps giving me hints that i should get the Mid autumn festival concert DVD for her. i think that is what i shall do.
God is the maker of all wonder. If He can clothe the lillies of the valley, and feed the birds of the sky, what more can He do for His dear child.
If anyone who has the least bit love for me as a friend, please say a little prayer for my grandmother.
she is the one who woke my brother and i up at 4am just to get to school on time. (but we ended up being stuck outside the school, because we were SO early) *grin*
she is the one who painstakingly raised 6 children by her own self after her husband died tragically at the age of 40.
she is the one who tirelessly looks after every single one of her grandchildren, making sure they are bathed, clean, healty and well behaved. even if it means to nag and threathen to release the "police" on us =)
she is the one who so amazingly pronounces our favourite (as children), McDonald's as Mac-nor-ner.
she also affectionateyly calls my dad, Steven, as tee-boon.
(it never fails to crack me up)
sigh. she may be a tough nut, but thanks to her, we (her children and her grandchildren) have turned out to be well brought-up and well mannered. sure we make her boil at times, but you can tell but the slight grin on her face that she's proud of what we've become, and that she loves us more than we actually realise.
ah ma, i'll be praying for you everyday. i believe you'll still be around to nag at me when im getting fat, to compliment me when i've lost weight, and to always bring my favourite sour plums and popiah over, whenever you can.
i love you ah mah. and i pray that you wont be taken away from us, not before you have been blessed with endless Grace and return back to the Heavenly Father who so eagerly awaits your return to Him.
Dear Lord, dont let the devil take her away from us.
*in Jesus name i pray. Amen.*
WanHuaAaa shouted @ 3:47 AM
