I wanna scream!!!!!!kk. i know i've been having alot of fun lately and alot of exciting things are happening in my life.. such as heling hot brazilian male models change & laughing my ass off...buuuuuuttt..i just wanna scream. *i think im gonna hyperventilate*im feeling f*cking betrayed and lied to. thanks man. but bet he doesnt even know who he is.like wtf. i found out SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things today. oh yes, i did.all the lies you've told me and all the tears you've made me cry. thanks.when shitty things happen to you, just fall on you knees... stretch your arms out to the sky... and say a loud..HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*breathes heavily* i am sooooo pissed. i dunno if i'll be able to stop myself from slapping your face the next time i see you on the streets. to think that i let you ruin my outing when i saw you from on the opp. street. stupid me. yes, stupid wanhua.dunno why i even let you get to me. i actually stopped in the middle of the streets to cry. yes. i cried. ONCE AGAIN. for you.*arrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggghhhh*i'll learn to be wiser. i'll learn to scrutinise people more. just because i know someone as a friend, doesn't mean i'll be fully aware of how he'll be as a person.i've regretted my choice to let you get through to my heart. i regret it sooooo much.i guess the more i wanted it. the more it hurt.*i've got to stop crying*why is it that you NEVER know what you've got till its gone? it is soooo freeeeeaaaaking-chicken true la. even me! i'm so super guilty of that as well. and i wanna tell that one particular him.. a heartfelt... ...
IM SORRY.
like, honestly.. i was a total bitch. and finding out how much you mean/worth/love me and all that.. it has made me realise my folly.
BUT it doesnt matter now. u have someone..i wont screw it up for you. cause i know how it feels to be the victim in these kinda situations. to be..the woman left in the ditch in the end.. *pitiful laughter*
you never get another chance at life.
but luckily for some girls, the men they jilted were still dying to get back with her, even with all the shit she put him through.
but hey..who am i to judge? =)
oh wells.. i will not and i REFUSE to be that same nasty person. i will not treat him like a spare tire. only when i realise how good he is, then i just take him back?!
i mean like.. men may be cruel at times.. but there are the few who are.. just...... *sigh* ya..so they dont deserve this kinda shit. like...dude!!!
haha. THAT IS WHY.. i wont be a bitch and make that his life horrible. it is fine without me. he has been fine without me for so long. he will be better in future.i can control my feelings. haha. whatever they are.
i wanna be a selfish bitch..but i don't have the capacity to see him hurt.. yet again.. by me... soooo. i cant control my feelings. sure i can!! ha. *pathetic laughter yet again*
*with a thick country accent* I am stroooong.. baby!!!!
WanHuaAaa shouted @ 11:12 PM