been so bogged down by soooo much stuff!

the stress is reeeeeeeeaaally getting to me.

but its kinda too late now. nvm!!!!!!!!! i will fight n press on for me A's.

*freaking A's

hahaha. but lev is so adorable la. haha. he chided his collegue... for the way he was handling his relationship problems. ha.

*sniggers* oh wells. lev said that his collegue's prob was kinda like.. erm.. lik mine.

except for the fact that all the parties involved.. are men.. yes.

oh wells! it ish ok lev!!

haha. ur poor collegue. haha. bet u scolded him good eh? haha.















anyhu!!!! i saw this clutch at Miss Sixty.. where lev is working at. nicey nicey!! but its like %&(%*^! expensive la..

and this pair of ear rings. ahhhhh!!!!!!!! dman niiiiice! dammit. cant afford it.

*piss off*

hahahahha. wonder who would spend soooo much on a pair of ear rings la!

haha. so i had to settle for teasing woon by posing with all the bags that she wanted to buy.

my goodness. she actually bought a bag!!! haha. and she's gonna buy this one tt im clutching tightly to my body!!! hahaha!!!

*rich kid* pffffffftttt!

oh weeeelllllsss......

just came back from church. it was a healing session today. haha. was amazing to see the miracles that the Lord can bring unto us.

He healed so MANY brothers and sisters today. hmmm. He truely is Great.

well well... yes. i know i'm the Resurrected Child of God.. and nothing can stand in my way.

but i cant help but feel that empty void inside of me.

i am sad.

i've tried hard to fight it. but it keeps on coming back at me.

im done with pretending that it's all fine and dandy.

the camel's back has snapped. ha.

( i dont wish to be emo. but sorry guys!!!!)

" eventhough its bad to wallow in depression. always allow yourself sufficient time to mourn.. its only Human that we feel sadness. so dont move on too quickly, cause you'll just end up being in denial and u will never truely recover.

just like wet paint which dries only on the surface, but is still wet underneath.. and whatever that rests on it will just end up getting stained."

-wise words from a friend.

i dunno why. but she's always there just when i feel that all is lost. ya. thanks babe. really appreciate it.

i think im just stressing too much bout everything. jolly well knowing that i am the only one who's feeling so sad over the whole affair. *sigh*

why do i always make myself suffer?

wouldn't it be easier if i just let go...

just letting go of everything...

but somehow something is holding me back.. i dunno why.. but it is wat it is!!! *sigh*

(lev..i noe i've promised i wont sigh.. but i cant help it la!!!!!!)

i WAS fine. but somehow.. it all came rushing back. once again.

the same sappy situation. once again.

why does it always have to be like that? *gosh*

damn.. im getting a headache again.

and as usual.. when im emo.... lyrics come to my mind... haha.

*enjoy???


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There is beauty in the dark side

I'm not frightened

Cause without it , I could never feel the sun.

So I scream, scream cause it hurts.

Your every word cuts me inside

and leaves me feeling worse.

Is anybody out there?

Does anybody see?

That when the lights are off, something's killing me.

I know people care cause they're always around me.

But when the day is done and everybody runs,

Who will be the one to save me from myself?

Who will be the one who's there?

And not ashamed to see me crawl?

Who's gonna catch me when I fall.

I don't do excuses.

I just want to know why.

It's just a breakdown.

It happens all the time.

Don't even try,

I know you wanna help me,

but just let me cry.

Yeah, I loved you so

but you don't even know a thing I feel inside.

No, by the look in my eye.

It seems that I'm just fine

but I just need you to hold me tight.....